A mistake??

I often wonder why it is so easy for people to discard me. I am loyal, and I am always willing to help. Yet once I no longer serve the purpose or fill a need I am thrown away.

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I have found that no matter how good I am to people they are rarely ever good, kind or thoughtful toward me.  When they need me and I am helping and supporting and caring I am important to the

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It is almost like I remind them of who or where they used to be. I am a symbol of that past that they are running from and as such, they don't want to be reminded of who they once were and where they come from
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In so doing I am left wondering for some strange reason why I am not good enough or what I did wrong.  It does tear at your self-esteem and self-worth. Even in the most strong, self -assured person you question your worth at times.
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It hurts bad and deep. The abandonment and rejection time and time again. I know people grow and change but to treat you like a doormat or something that smells so bad they can't get away from you fast enough...
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These are the same people you were there for night and day supporting. Building them up and now you are literally ketchup on ice-cream to them ..useless. They don't consider you in any way. 
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You feel alone and abandoned wondering if you have or ever had any friends. If any of these people ever cared for or about you. The sadness at times can be overpowering when you know they don't care. They don't care how they make you feel.
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All you are seen as is a mistake they wish they had never made.